Saved from sin at Aldis

I was at Aldis earlier, and had a bit of a naughty thought. I was buying bread from the bakery, and saw the pasteis de nata, which of course are not vegan. I felt a bit tempted to have one and even grabbed a packet to put it in, when I realised...

This pastel de nata will have to be recorded in my calorie tracker, and will mess up my macros for the day!

So catching myself, I put the packet back and didn't have the pdn. But it's strange how close it came, and how (the sort of) veganism (I practise, which admittedly isn't true veganism) seems to be becoming burdensome to me, and I want to cheat at it and do away with it. I know it's not ethically tolerable, but every time I go to the shop, I want to buy something nice and animal-producty: goat's cheese, or some milk, or bacon, or chocolate. I go to Italian places and want to order pizzas with regular cheese on them. I'm not sure why I'm getting these urges. I know it's wrong. Maybe I'm becoming disenchanted, or missing the original reason why, since it's been a good sixteen years now I've lead the (mostly) vegan life. Every time I'm only saved by habituation and the knowledge that it would be wrong...